Im Free mothafucka!

[StrickyCub]

I'm not one to promote drug usage, but sometimes when life is hard and it seems like it won't get better, they can be more a lifesaver than having someone jump off a bridge or slit their wrists in the bathtub because they can't take it.
I have anxiety, mild borderline, and severe depression. I'm on anti-depressants, I have to take valium and sleeping pills when I have breakdowns, and I smoke weed for my insomnia.
With the stuff Nic's family has been putting him through, it's not a wonder he's taken E's to escape from it.

~Zack

[HiMyNameIsMegan]

Yeah.. Lots of people are going through stuff they don't have to turn to drugs.

[StrickyCub]

Perhaps you should try living in their shoes then, instead of making accusations that they don't need to turn to drugs. See how you cope without help from anyone or anything.

~Zack

[HiMyNameIsMegan]

Yeah, You said it's a wonder that Nic had taken e's to escape from it, kinda meaning that he's taking drugs to get rid of his troubles which is fair. I wasn't saying thats a bad thing. He can do what he wants I was just saying him taking drugs and then going into a place probably full of people was possibly a bad idea ^.^. You don't know what my life is like and you don't know my problems either half of the users on this probably have problems they havent shared. I just have other things that keep me occupied other than drugs and i'm sorry to hear that you have anxiety and depression i hope you get better.

[Hardware]

Well, if anyone's high school life was as difficult as mine (and I'm pretty damn sure it is) I can relate. Drugs are a sensitive button for me and I do not condone them personally. I have been clean for over 10 years from H and I was an everyday pot smoker until 4 years ago. I was a Ritalin kid back in the 80's for ADHD and it caused me to have severe depression that led to a series of suicide attempts. My life sucked ass.
I refused anti-depressants. Using a pill to solve the problems caused by another pill I was on earlier in life made no f-ing sense to me. I'm not telling anyone to stop taking their medications, because that is a HORRIBLE idea and I am certainly not a neurologist (even though I have been to enough of them in my damn life).

I deal with my crap by exercising, I started by walking. I now jog 5k runs for every charitable cause I can find, I meditate and do yoga. I write a lot and help others in any way I can (hence I hit up this board). I eat foods that are good for me, if you eat like shit, you think like shit. Self advocacy is also a big part of it. Realize what your triggers are and find a positive way to release the problem. Know what your limits are.
I am not perfect, so don't think I'm trying to come off as some kind of superior jerk off. I still struggle with a lot of shit just like everybody else (because you are always going to have problems and stress). Personally I found it a lot easier to deal with my problems head on rather than drown them in temporary fixes like drugs or alcohol.

So, who is in control of your life and your body, you or something else? Only you can be held responsible for your actions, what you do to your body or the things you choose to put into it. Nobody is gonna hold your hand through life giving you all the answers, I'm certainly not. Anyway, I just wanted to throw my 2 cents in on this topic.

[vdub]

I messed with Adderall, anti-depressants, weed, and a lot of salvia for a few years.

There was one point where I had smoked $100 worth of salvia in one sitting (while on antidepressants, a weed brownie, and a beer), I was basically in a standing coma. I'm not trying to be badass or anything, but the amount of salvia I had in my head triggered something, and I think it had to do with the antidepressants. I was at a party with people I didn't know and the salvia hit me so hard I just stood there and woke up still standing in the corner hours later with people freaking out trying to figure out if they should call an ambulance or not. Now I can't smoke weed without going into a panic attack. It's been over a year and still the smell of even unsmoked weed throws me into a panic where I can barely even drive home without my foot shaking so bad i dump the clutch and stall every shift. There is a whole lot more I could ramble about, but the panic attacks and the salvia left me permanently changed. I see the world differently now, and my perception of people is different, but it's left me feeling weak. The easiest way to describe it is that my ego died. If I ever have kids, I'm never going to medicate them for ADD or depression or anything. It's going to be hard for them to convince to even vaccinate them. You know there's been a 600% increase in autism since the 80's, same time they introduced a ton of new vaccines for babies.

But yeah, I'm 100% clean except my nightly PBR before I go to bed.

Also, I went to jail awhile ago too and I had to take out my plugs a day after I stretched, was a bitch to stretch back up. Good luck with everything, I doubt you'll get a year in jail though. I had a friend get off with 24 hours community service after pleading guilty to $200 shoplifting. He was going to face 3 days in jail, but I guess the judge liked him.

[HiMyNameIsMegan]

I too have been on ritalin from a young age for my adhd and my life hasn't exactly been the best. I just don't want to share. In no way was i trying to start arguements on here I was just saying his choice was stupid i didn't mean to offend anyone ^.^ it just go's to show that maybe modifying you're body helps alot .

[magalo le matelot]

Oh my god. I did go so many times at the mall while being high on pills. And a police officer caught me smoking weed in a car (he let us go!). If I was you I'll kill that person that snitched you haha...

I'm not against drugs since I'm young and THIS is the time to try funny things. I won't take drugs anymore when I'll have kids and a real job and a house. Now it's time to do stupid things. Live your youth! But I prefer not being caught, haha.

[Nic]

lol beleive me, if i knew who that fuckin snitch was there ass would be jumped so quick it wouldnt even be funny.

[corazon_de_oro]

Oh my god. I did go so many times at the mall while being high on pills. And a police officer caught me smoking weed in a car (he let us go!). If I was you I'll kill that person that snitched you haha...

I'm not against drugs since I'm young and THIS is the time to try funny things. I won't take drugs anymore when I'll have kids and a real job and a house. Now it's time to do stupid things. Live your youth! But I prefer not being caught, haha.

Keep doing pills and you might not ever have kids, a real job, or a house. Those things can kill you, or just seriously f*ck up your life. Trust me, I live in a neighborhood FULL of pillheads. There was probably a point when they thought they were just trying it to have fun too.